Life has been busy. At work we've been making lots of decisions on staff to hire, answering and sending crazy numbers of emails, and I've been working on writing devotional guides for the counselors to use with their campers over the summer. Some of us from the office even did a little "research project" on scoping out a possible new camper trip to a Zipline tour (if you've never been ziplining..you need to find a way to do it!). Along with all the physical busy-ness, I've been mentally busy with figuring out grad school stuff, meditating over cabin devotions, and anticipatiing going home to see my familly and boyfriend. It's been a happily productive week. But, today...I felt the blow of it all hit me. Because my mind has been so busy...lies from the enemy and confusion found their way into my thoughts. I started to worry and feel discouraged about all that I have been doing. I felt overwhelmed and panic stricken with all I'm responsible for and confused about where my future is going. With me, when I start to worry about one thing...it opens a floodgate for everything else going on (I guess my subconscious figures if Im worrying..might as well worry about it all).
As I was walking home from work, I looked up to the sky and let a out a huge sigh..aka..a distress call to the Lord. I told Him that I need Him to make Himself known. I then became aware of my time spent with Him lately. Not cool. My time spent with the Lord has not been fruitful or still. I haven't been seeking out His presence daily in my life. I had a verse...one that got me through some rough times last year...taped to the steering wheel of my car.
Psalm 16:11 "You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore."
Why is that not still taped to my steering wheel? (I actually think I had my window open and it blew off somewhere...anyway...) We know fully and believe He will make our paths straight. We know He gives us joy, and not only knows our desires, but make them His own. What I love about this verse is "IN YOUR PRESENCE". The Lord is always with us. But, when I'm seeking out His presence, will, and path for my life...I find joy. When I'm still with Him in a quiet place...the confusion of life dissolves. When I'm in His presence daily among the busy-ness of life...He makes known to me the path of life. It never ceases to amaze me all the clarity I get when I actually spend time with my God and seek His face.
It is usually during these crazy times of worry and discouragement when we are drawn back to the Cross. Christ totally shows up in our doubts and fears and pulls us back. So...Im going out in the cold to tape that verse back up in my car to remind me to seek His presence. God knows I need that daily!
(Listen to "Lead Me to the Cross" by Chris and Conrad...Ive been listening to it over and over tonight)
I really like that verse.
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